But - and this is a positive "but" - God is going to meet me where I am while I do this study. He promises in Scripture that He gives wisdom to those who ask, and I have. He promises to reveal Himself to those who are seeking, and I am.
The lesson ended with Isaiah 54:10:
For the mountains may be removed and the hills may shake, but my loving kindness will not be removed from you, and My covenant of peace will not be shaken, says the Lord who has compassion on you.
Lord, whether You move the mountains of struggles before me, or You shake up my world even more, You promise that You will NEVER remove Your lovingkindness - Your loyal love - Your covenental love - from me. And that's what we are in, Lord - a covenant. Even through the ups and downs you promise Your covenant of peace on me - I can be sure You are with me through it all! You have compassion on me Lord - You see that I struggle with actively believing. Meet me here, Lord. Teach me how to be silent and quiet before You and to hear the words You speak to me.