Trust in the Lord with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding.
In all your ways acknowledge Him
and He will direct your path.
This is our verse of the week for school with my kindergartener. Already this has been such a gift to me this morning.
I'm no stranger to anxiety attacks. Long story, MUCH abbreviated, I started having them in 1999 as I was wrestling through some doubt and frustration with my faith. God was faithful and brought me through that and He truly does get the glory. I had some issues when baby #3 arrived while we were in the hospital, but thankfully since that time almost 10 years ago, they have been very few and far between.
This morning I started feeling that familiar tightness to my chest and whirling in my stomach. What a comfort to know that I don't have to understand why I have these sudden unexplainable panics. He does and I trust Him. I was able to acknowledge that even though my faith in Him was weak this morning (and for which I was so so sorry), I acknowledged His omnipresence with me and that He would walk with me through this day. The words of Elisabeth Elliott popped into my mind ... "Do the next thing." I was already up fumbling through my quiet time, so I pressed on. Making sippy cups of milk. Curling up on the loveseat with a 2 year old to cuddle and watch a little Mickey Mouse Clubhouse. Making a husband's lunch. Starting school with our circle time, singing "Deep and Wide" and reading the story of the tower of Babel.
Probably to most, the name of my blog seems pretty obscure. (How does this tie in with the verse above, etc.? Just hold on...) :) It's taken from Psalm 52:8-9 which says:
I am like an olive tree flourishing in the house of the Lord,
I will trust in the unfailing love of God forever.
I will praise his name for what he has done; in His name I will hope.
His mercies have no end!
So thankful for these verses on trust this morning and that He is the only one that is worthy of my complete unwavering trust ... and so thankful that when I do waver, He doesn't give up on me.
Glory to Him. :)